I always say I am going to do things different. I make list, rant about change, and all that jazz; however, I always come back explaining or making an excuse for "why." Why I never followed through and how this time things will be different. I am really tired of it, and I guess I am really going for it this time. Next paycheck I am buying a camera, and I am going to get involved in photography, like when I was in high school. Also, I am going to focus a lot more of my writing. I feel my lack of creativity ruined me. Losing my imagination was horrible. When did I become so lazy?
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I believe I live my life too fast, and I need to slow down a bit. I have patience, however, patience varies in different situations. For example, I have the patience to stand in line on Black Friday; however, most often I will not stop to enjoy something, which I feel I can experience later. I do not know why I do this - I just do! I think from now on I have to stop and enjoy the little things more than I do now. When I think "Hey, I should look at that" or "I should record that" - I will! This goes with my previous post, and dammit I will keep this. I want to, and I think I need to.
